We are officially at the half way point. A point of pregnancy I have never been to or experienced. I am so grateful to be here but the half way point has brought a lot of mixed emotions. I’m absolutely ecstatic in regards to everything about our little girl but I definitely experience sadness too (reality is a bitch sometimes eh?). Just the realization that my journey with our precious little boy had ended by this point pulls at the heart strings. Plus, being in such bliss about our little girl sometimes makes me feel guilty too. Mostly though, it’s reminding me (again) not to dwell, but to reflect. I’ve been reflecting on my experience, my emotion, my grief and my progress. Some days I feel like I’m two steps back and others I feel like I am hundred steps to far ahead (another guilty thing). The bottomline is, Liam has created this gratefulness that I would otherwise never know and makes the half way mark that much more exciting, surreal… magical. Am I still healing? Abso-freaking-lutely (as I write this through tears). Am I excited for this new journey ahead? FRIG YA! Just a little ying and yang I have to deal with on the daily and that’s okay.
How far along? OFFICIALLY HALF WAY (20 Weeks)
Baby is now the size of: Small Cantaloupe or Banana (depending what source you look at)
Gender: A GIRL
Movement: YES! Little lady likes to party at 12am every night without fail and Mommy loves it too much to sleep!
Food cravings: This week was Cherry Cheese Danishes! Unfortunately not all Tim Horton’s carry it and the strudel just wouldn’t do so I was on a hunt to take care of my craving…daily. At a local grocery store I finally found a strawberry cheese danish the size of a pizza. Naturally I bought it and have been having snippets (plate fulls) on the daily.
Favorite meal this week: My mom’s beet salad.
Purchases: Yes, I caved. Found a flamingo sweater I HAD to have for my little girl. I couldn’t risk it vanishing from inventory.
Emotional moment this week: One Word: Work. My job is a stressful one and I don’t think I’ve been without tears for months. This week came with river fulls.
Best moment this week: This past week has been magic in the pregnancy world. Pure Magic. Beau has been so sweet chit chatting here and there to our little babe. He also gives her little smooches (which melts my heart!). He ALSO got to feel her little kicks!!!! Pure bliss on all fronts. Another amazing moment was my little brother was able to catch our stubborn little girl’s movement.
Feeling: Really excited! We have our ultrasound in two days and I just can’t wait to see our little darling girl
Ps- How much better are these images!? I wish Lydia from L.B Photography could take them EVERY week!
Photo Cred: L.B Photography